The Wind and the Leaves

Fundraising is completed. Jesus poured all finances in this past week as I gave pedicures to many of you for my upcoming adventure/season. I stand in awe of the God we serve and as a friend heard that all finances came in she quoted someone, "where God guides, God provides." I do agree with this quote as it seems to be quite true in my life. Never did I imagine that Jesus would guide me to go through YWAM and then continue in it for another season, but as He has confirmed it time and time again, I couldn't help but be obedient. When I said 'yes,' in my heart to following the leading of leaving the salon, things weren't all so clear, but I believe that is the whole idea about being obedient. Romans 1:5 Paul says, "obedience comes from faith".

"The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you can not tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit." John 3:8 (Jesus speaking to Nicodemus)

Today, as I discovered a set of bleachers to my right while driving in Kansas City I decided to park my car and go sit on the bleachers thinking maybe I would read a book or draw a picture. The wind was warm and the sun inviting. I lay down on the bleachers and shut my eyes and wonder at the sound of creation. The wind was blowing and I could hear the leaves moving. Meditating on the sounds, the wind reminded me of Jesus's Spirit moving around me. The sound of the leaves moving sounded like footsteps, people walking to and fro. As I thought about it, the leaves represent people: some leaves are sitting on the surface of the grass and other leaves have been stepped on or have become weighted down by other leaves or maybe the rain. The other thought that comes to mind while typing this out of my journal is that some leaves have settled in because it is comfortable and don't want to be moved out of comfort. 

I want to be like the leaf sitting on the surface of the grass. As Jesus's Spirit is blowing whether it is a strong wind one moment or a light breeze another moment, I want to be moved by His Spirit. His Spirit is what lives inside of us and it is what directs us. I desire to be like the leaf all the days of my life. 

"Jesus, may I sit on the surface of the grass, letting the wind of you Spirit move me to where you want me to be. May I not become comfortable but always willing to be moved by You because you say Your Spirit moves wherever it pleases."

As I share this raw entry in my journal with you, I pray that it would be encouraging and resonate with where you are at right now. And for those of you who feel stuck or comfortable, my prayer is that the Holy Spirit would come underneath and 'un-stick' you. 

Thanks for being so encouraging in my time being home and leading up to this next season of dedicating it solely to the Word of God. I've been witnessing Jesus moving in crazy ways since I've been back in Sioux Center and I believe it's been because of many of your prayers. Would you please continue to lift me up as 5 weeks from tomorrow I will be leaving to attend SBS (School of Biblical Studies) for 9 months. I've been told by others and the Lord has revealed this to me through many that this upcoming season is going to be intense. I invite you to lift up the class, teachers, and staff in Taiwan. 

Kortney